Tears Fallin Down, I Can't see Thru the Mist /
Why they Doin This? /
Cause how I look and my Hue a Risk /
So Cops Pursue and Frisk /
I ain't New to This /
Kill a Nigga and say you Resist /

Yeah, it's Ludicrous /
Got my own Issues, Wanna View the List? /
Like If I Died Would I be Truly Missed? /
Is it me or you ever Question why you Exist? /

Uh, Someone tell me what I'm on Earth for? /
Is this what Life has to Offer - am I Worth More? /
Haven't found the answers, Ima Search More /
Filled wit Suicidal Thoughts on the Church Floor /

Yeah, Reflecting on Life, Accepting my Strife, the Aches and the Shame /
I got Plenty of Regrets and Mistakes in the Game /
That’s why I'm Taking the Blame /
This adds Weight to the Brain /
Thought I was Healed but My Return Awakens the Pain /

Tryna deal wit it, don’t wanna concern my spouse /
Feeling like Christon Gray on burning house /
Every time that I visit you exposing more /
So I’m never coming back, I gotta close the door /

To many lows I bore /
So I chose a war /
Yeah the flames getting higher - there goes the floor /
Standing there like I could cry /
But why should I? /
Waving that part of my life goodbye /


Hook - Victoria McCartney

Can't hide all the pain /
Cause its who I am today /
Can't hold back the tears /
That I held in all these years /

Cause this is my whole heart /
yes, this is my whole heart /
And I'm eyeing doubt /
LORD I'm crying out /
Do you hear me? /
Do you hear me? /

Verse Two

Look, I use to run wit thugs /
Now I praying every time I give my son a hug /
Why I put things over Christ who nones above? /
Why I bring the most hurt to the ones I love? /
Huh? /

Yeah, yo my wrongs still sting to date /
How many times was I hurt but said things is great? /
GOD, my path crooked will it swing to straight? /
Ain’t it strange we become the very things we hate? /

Dogg, I can’t resist the tears /
Yesterday we was twisting beers /
I’m realizing that my circle is missing peers /
You never know what you have til it disappears /
Uh, shifting gears /

It’s krayzie what life will hand you /
Pain and hardships ain’t eazy to stand through /
I got a grand view /
You know what your Idols are not by what you're runnin from but what you ran to /

Yeah, this is deep nigga and true /
Conflicted cuz I know a couple mans who /
Highlight you in laser red like a scanned sku /
Put you under white sheets like the klan do /

And they sell keys /
No selfies /
Come around and you smell trees /
Baggy jeans, XL Tees /
LORD, cover em in your blood like the second DMX LP /


Hook - Victoria McCartney

Can't hide all the pain /
Cause its who I am today /
Can't hold back the tears /
That I held in all these years /

Cause this is my whole heart /
yes, this is my whole heart /
And I'm eyeing doubt /
LORD I'm crying out /
Do you hear me? /
Do you hear me? /Verse Three

I’m Locked up, had crack for sale /
Due to my past they giving me flack for bail /
My cell dirty and the food whack and stale /
Tellin homie what he can and can’t pack for mail /

Deception got me disputing the wise /
Institutionalize /
Which means I’m on track to fail /
Did 10 months, 2 months later back in Jail /
Dang, it’s so hard being black and male /

Now a days I have no desire for joy /
Criminal record so who gon hire your boi? /
Minimum can’t feed the fam /
This indeed a scam /
I rather load up and fire the toy /

The system flawed - government ain’t dealin the cards right /
(So) Its back to block and I’m dealin the hard white /
My thoughts stressin me /
Is this my destiny? /
I know it’s wrong but this options the best for me /

Word, so let a nigga live yo /
GOD judges but doesn’t He forgive tho? /
Uh, I know His grace is well /
But to give my kids heaven I’m embracing hell /

So there’s nothing to view or see /
You won’t understand dogg unless you were me /
Now don’t judge like a 2 da 3 /
My heart saying that the LORD is pursuing me /
Will I let him make me new and free? /


Hook - Victoria McCartney

Can't hide all the pain /
Cause its who I am today /
Can't hold back the tears /
That I held in all these years /

Cause this is my whole heart /
yes, this is my whole heart /
And I'm eyeing doubt /
LORD I'm crying out /
Do you hear me? /
Do you hear me? /